"When I'm in a state of depressed state, I become a non-believer for a little while. I forget my magic...
Then I suddenly remember erotic pleasure.
I lace depression, grief, and sadness with pleasure.
Eroticism is a bestower of power and fortitude. It makes it so that I always manage to get back up and believe again."
Goddess Break
Het Heru also known is Hathor (Greek derivation)
One of my favorite pleasure Goddesses is Het Heru. She is a full-spectrum pleasure Goddess at the highest capacity. From rage to bliss, Het Heru is the cow-headed, Kemetic-Egyptian Goddess of Love. She is the Ancestral Mother who lives in the sycamore tree and ushers the dead into the afterlife. She is the Ancestral mother who birthed the Milk Way from her breasts.
As Sekhmet, Het Heru is the pleasure of divine rage. She feasts unremorsefully on the blood of wicked men.
Her seductive qualities can subdue anger...even from the burliest of men.
She is a Goddess with many faces, but Het Heru as the Goddess of prolonged ecstatic pleasure has my attention the most.
Het Heru is sustainable pleasure.
With the prevelence of addictions, pleasure is labeled as "gluttonous" by default and treated as something we should guard ourselves from.
Much of society has been far removed from the medicinal properties of pleasure. And remember, hard drugs and alcohol are pleasure too. Sugar as well. But too often these substances are turned to with the intent to mask pain rather than make a connection with it, heal and release.
Intense emotions become a weakness.
Tears become a weakness.
Rest becomes a weakness.
Orgasms have become a weakness.
For me, erotic pleasure is a road opener. It's a vehicle for healing, moving through my body, sprinkling radical self-acceptence and sowing the seeds of self-actualization everywhere.
It's the practice of integrating depression, doubt, fear, pain and grief with sensuality and sexuality.
There are moments when I don't know how to respond to troubling life experiences or a way of being that I've grown tired of. These painful uncomfortable feelings woven with pleasure catalyzes how I face them.
I heal more, with honey.
If I wasn't able to cry then, I can now... through the guidance of bliss. If I was numb then, I can feel now. If I was stuck then, I can flow now through the guidance of sex as medicine.
Pleasure is my third eye mirror, showing me what needs to be felt. At the point of release, the meshing of lusciousness and darkness alchemizes pain into orgasmia.
When my voice felt broken, fear-ladden, and I couldn't pray, it was the act of breathing into my cervix combined with nipple stimulation that put me back together. When I was in doubt, it was soft erotic caresses on my ass that allowed me speak over myself with dignity and allocate and command my energy properly.
And it feels good.
Speaking of ecstasy (not the drug)... I have to be very careful with that. Once I descend into my body, I never want to come out of it.
Sex Magic for Doubt
Do this ritual when you feel stuck or hesitant and need to fortify your energy.
The point of this ritual is to allow yourself to be sensitive and surrender to pleasure. Self-doubt is a non-muthafuckin' factor.
First, get into a comfortable position. Think about what position gives you the maximum sensitivity in a self-pleasure session. Get into that position.
Relax your mind and focus on your breath. Make sure you are exhaling fully.
To warm up your clitoris, begin by massaging your breasts and work your way to your nipples. Nipple stimulation will wake up your clitoris.
Continue focusing on your breath. Place your fingers on your clitoris. Greet her. Don't fully engage with sexual pleasure just yet. Just touch and be with her as if you are saying hello.
As you progress into sexual sensations, continue to focus on breathing deeply. Do not tighten your vagina, or place tension in any other body part. Find the most sensitive point on your clitoris and stay there.
Imagine a glowing white light coming from your yoni and it is wrapping around your entire body. If it becomes too much, move to a less sensitive area and come back. Again, do not engage your vagina through kegels.
This is where you will surrender. You want to succumb to and expand all of the pleasure happening in your body. Allow the light to expand and protect you from faulty identities.
As you are breathing, try breathing through your nipples or anus. You can choose to reach orgasm or you can edge (stopping when you are about to reach orgasm, starting back up again, and repeating the process). After orgasm, you should be renewed with the strength to fulfill whatever it is you have been struggling with.
If the thought of using pleasure for healing feels foreign or taboo, I reccomend that you take long walks in the forest to build your sense of self-pleasure. This is an anti-depressant. Go outside and merge with nature. Our Ancestors saw the aliveness in nature just as they did in other humans.
Be attentive to its beauty as you would with a lover.
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